ok so basically. way back i was falling for this girl... she was perfect and i loved her to bits, but things feel apart and i didnt see her for about 1 year... anyway so i got bck in touch with her recently and we had been talking and asking eachother how it had been going, you know all the stuff that friends usually do when they havent seen eachother in a long time
a couple of weeks afetr i had got back in touch with her i started asking her about her personal life (boyfriends) stuff like that. she told me that she had just broken up with her boyfriend... this is when i was starting to get involved, i loved this girl sooo much and this was my chance to finally prove it to her, anyway i was asking her on dates (none of which happened) - flirting with her and doing all the stuff that i thought would make her happy...
it was December 27th and we had planned to meet up, i had got myself prepared and dressed and organised... i got to where we were meeting only to be dissapointed by phone call "hiya sorry cant come today im busy soz byee", so i thought nothing of it... we had planned to meet 2 days after this... "omg im soo tried i just cant get out of bed, another day", i just kept on asking her and we kept on planning but we never ever got round to doing anything... A couple of nights ago (8th january), i went into a state of deep thought and i was thinking to myself 'hmm what have i actually done in life that im proud of?', i eventually came to the conclusion that i had done NOTHING!, yep absoloutely nothing... i started becoming really depressed not only because of the girl of my dreams no longer liked me, but because i had nothing to live up to... no ambitions, no achievments... NOTHING!... so i started doing what i thought i should'nt do, i started self harming, i was lying on the floor crying my eye's out... i was smoking 40/day, i was and still am really screwed up in the head... i eventually starting wondering 'is forgetting her going to help me?'...and this is why i need your help, should i forget her?. but i dont want to forget her and then realise that it wasnt her that was making me depressed... plz plz plz, i need urgeant helpIs forgetting someone the best answer to stop depression?
Just forget about her. Yes sometimes this is easier said than done but with a bit of willpower (Wanting to actually forget her) then you will and you'll be happier that way. Nothing's worse than pining after someone you cant have ! Just stop calling/texting/hanging out with her :)
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