Should I still try? I miss him.?

I've been really upset because my friend who I've liked for a very long time isn't on talking terms with me anymore. Well atleast I am because he hurt me and acts like he doesn't care anymore, but something tells me he does. I wrote this because I felt really depressed, after reading this, should I make an effort or wait for him to contact me? :



I love you. And I just can’t find the words to explain how much I do. I miss you so much, it’s tearing me apart and even though it sounds so ******* cheesy, it’s the truth. All I want to do is pick up the phone and call you and say it, but I’m scared that you don’t care and if you don’t then I don’t know what I’d do. It’s this so called hope that’s actually keeping me alive and breathing , this eagerness that you’ll call me and tell me in your words that you still care and love me and want things to go back to what they were before all this happened. Why do things have to keep changing the minute you expect life to be actually worth living? Why can’t time just freeze for just 10 ******* minutes, because I promise you, 10 minutes with you will be the best spent 10 minutes of my entire life. Whenever I look at that cardigan, I think of that night, when you almost kissed me, even if it was the wrong thing to do. I know you’re a ******** and an asshole, because I never expected you to cause me such pain and I wish I had never met you but now that I have, it kills me every moment of every day not talking to you and I find different ways of distracting myself because I get even more depressed every time I think about you not caring. Expectations are the worst things a person can have because it results in being completely heart broken. I’ve gone through this several times and I still can’t convince myself to not keep expectations, but you need them to survive. And “whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” right? Then why do I feel like I’m weak, like I have no bones to support my body? I love you and I want to make things right. I can’t lose you, not YOU. If I can’t have you now, I’ll try my best and I eventually will accept it but don’t just disappear. Pick up the phone right now and call me. I want to do this but I can’t and I hope you understand. I miss you , so just call I promise I won’t be mad. I can’t give up this hope but I feel worse as time passes by. Just tell me that you love me and nothing has to change and I won’t have to feel this way anymore. I love you and it’s killing me inside,slowly.





Please help?Should I still try? I miss him.?
He's probably married. If he is then there isn't a point in contact each other anymore. If he isn't then after he reads this, trust me he will call. Not because he loves you, its just simply because you are easily to be use. You are clingy. Clingy attitude would make any guy thinks that you're just useless you can't live without him and he might as well cheats on you. Honestly he is not worth your time investment. Do not make yourself lower than you already did. Just live your life get to know more people, find a new interest, go for yoga, new hobbies and stuff.

Good luck.